March 20, 2015
When I attend my Catholic Mass, I believe the bread and wine change. Too often, that is all that changes. I receive Communion, but I don’t change. Why? I intend to change, to improve, to give up bad behavior. I have intentions, which I mistake for willpower. Finally, I decided that left to my own devices, I will just be mediocre at best, and many days not even that. I have no devices to change for the better. God does. So I admit I am stuck. Humility! God help me or else I go around in circles at best. But God will help me if I surrender. I begin each day admitting I need help. I enjoy mercy, forgiveness and grace simply by admitting need. I like this God I have found. Now and again I run into someone else who is on the same path. I am not alone in needing help.